hypnotize is one of my favorite songs, its funny i found lyrics to it.

new set since like FOREVER!
 
got a boyfriend sept. 9
broke up on halloween
got back together on halloween
broke up day after halloween
got back together the day after halloween
never breaking up again with my baby!!! <3

LCA RP
 

 

 

 

 
Ariana's Official Blog.
What: Returning to LCA, for good.
Where: LCA, this time its real.
Listening to: 7 things - Miley Cyrus
Wearing: Metallic Leggings (and they're cheap!!)
 
So...i lied? When i said i came back, i didnt really come back to stay. of course i didnt know this. hours after i was blogging i went out to a party at some club. if i remembered the date or name i would give those details, but i was drunk. hellooo i hadnt had a drink since before being taken to get help back in L.A. so i was intoxicated. Somehow i ended up with cameron and i DO remember this part of the night, suprisingly. i did it. i had s'ex with cameron. And i wish i didnt really...because this informal event took place in a bathroom stall, with me pressed against the dirty floor. somehow pictures of this somehow surfaced on the internet, as well as me dancing on tables not fully clothed, and dancing with a bunch of girls in a circle, with food smeared all over my face and arms. what happened that night? I dont know. i really dont have any recollection of any of those events. all i know is within 24 hours i had to pack everything i had at LCA and come home, for good. Cameron and i kissed goodbye and i never saw any of my friends. I felt heartbroken. Id never see cameron again, or even my friends like kat. She really was the only friend i knew i'd miss, but i really wouldnt forget anyone at LCA. so ive been in rehab. and i cant drink anymore. it sucked really, but i worked hard, and now im back. They finally let me out and im here to stay at LCA...or so i hope. who knows if in hours i will be out in a club doing naughty things. Joking. Completlepy. I want to be at LCA and im not going to let a night i dont remember ruin that. I'm back LCA and hell yes im happy. So everyone here, please take note...no more drinking for me. (:
 
As soon as i arrived i searched for cameron. "BABY!" i screamed as soon as i saw him. he was walking down the hall, his arm around a petite girls waist. he didnt realize it was me talking, or that i was talking to him. i hurried up and tapped him on the shoulder. he turned around quickly and before he could even register it was me, i pressed my lips onto his and pushed him into the wall. Mmm we hadnt kissed in so long and it was amazing. i missed him more then i knew how to explain. When i finally pulled away he looked at me in shock. "i thought we'd never see eachother again. what are you doing here?" He questioned. i frowned, my brow furrowing. "Why arent you happy to see me..." i sighed, searching his face for hints. "Well its not that...its just i have a new...girlfriend." he swallowed. "because you know i thought you were gone..and we were over." I looked at him, not knowing what to say. "Oh." was the best i could muster. "your going to stay with her cameron arent you...your over me. over what we've been through. the love we confessed even though nobody approved...and...your over the fact that we had s'ex." i sighed, i could feel the tears working up in me, getting ready to spill out. "No no no no...dont say that! i dont even love lilyana, ari...i love you. and i didnt know youd come back. Just give me a sec, okay?" he tried to sound reasurring. I rolled my eyes. he walked across the hall to the petite girl who was standing, arms crossed, giving me the evil eye. She was sorta cute, but she had a huge mouth. she wore a giant purple scarf, a black sweater with matching leggings, and knee high uggs, with little red socks poking out. i didnt have any competition clearly. she talked to cameron for a moment, and as he walked away, she looked at me, a pained expression on her face, and then hurried away...straight to the ladies room. "BBaaabbby your breaking other girls hearts now for me." i giggled, pulling him into me. i smelled his shirt, axe. typical. i looked up into his eyes. "Now show me you missed me."
 
basically, im back, and this time im not leaving you all. so i look forward to seeing you all and hanging out again. im sorry i left LCA, my world literally fell apart. but now that im back...im willing to be the good girl i once was...but theres still a good girl gone bad hiding in my closet. She's in there...and she will come out.
-A

Deadmau5 is thaa shizz.
 
craving - frozen chocolate drink whateverrr its called from starbucks with whipped cream and a ton of chocolate syrup.
 
I ATE POSION TODAY - SCARY STUFF.
pm for story, if i dont write it later
[i dont think i will, im lazy]

You never know what you have until you lose it.
 
"It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces"
 
"When you left, I lost a part of me"
 
"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried"
 
My heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it is in pieces because of you.
 
If you love me like you told me, please be careful with my heart; you can take it; just don't break it or my world will fall apart.
 
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
 
"If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go"
 
"My heart was taken by you, broken by you and now it's in pieces because of you"
 
"I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell"
 

 
"Listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye"
 

"Sometimes the memories are worth the pain"
 
"Everytime we talk, I fall a little harder"
 

"When I see you smile and know that its not for me, that's when I miss you the most"
 
"You never know what you have until its gone"
 
"The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone"
 
"Take a look at me now, cause there's just an empty space. And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face." - Phil Collins
 
"This is a song for the lonely, can you hear me tonight? For the broken hearted, battle scarred I'll be by your side. - Cher!

Frosh =]
hah, today sucked.

LCA RP:
 

 

 

 

 
Ariana's Official Blog.
What: Tennis with the boys
Where: tennis courts
Listening to: Oxford Comma - Vampire Weekend
Wearing: Nike Tennis Dress
 
I got to the tennis courts and walked over to the pop machine to grab an ice cold water bottle. Cameron walked up to me and put his arms around me. It felt so right, but awkward, because we weren't dating...and I'm seriously beyond confused about what to think. I looked up at him and he kissed me. I pulled away. "Not in front of everybody." I whispered. "Why not? I'm in love with you." He said. I glanced over at Kat and Izzy who all gave me dirty looks. They obviously did not approve. "Cameron...its just that...everyone knows what you did to me, and this makes me look like a desperate hoe. I think i love you too." I sighed. He squeezed me and then let go. I walked over to my friends. "Are you seriously gonna kiss the guy who belongs in a deep hole???" Izzy raised her eyebrows. I looked to Kat. She said nothing but crossed her arms and shook her head. "I dont know what to do." I mumbled. I don't know much about tennis, but im pretty sure theres something to do with LOVE.SET.MATCH?
ohhh p.s, my hair= brown again :D
-A-

LCA RP:

 

 

Ariana's Official Blog.
What: Updating Classes
Where: LCA
Listening to: Knock you Down - Keri Hilson
Wearing: My own dress (an ABT)
 
Updating Classes:
 
Period One - Ceramics
Another period of time to listen to my i-pod while the rest of the class works.
 
Period Two - Photography
I took pictures of the classroom in different effects, and odd angles, showing a whole new perspective to things in a room you see everyday. I love cameras.
 
Period Three - French
We took a pop quiz, i think i failed. I havent even opened my textbook once to look things over. French Textbook= dust collector.
 
LUNCH - I saw Cameron across the room and i fought the urge to go sit with him and kiss him. He is so adorable. He was alone and he looked so unhappy, or like something was missing. I caught his eye and telepathically told him to come join me. He slowly walked across the room. "Can I sit here?" He asked. I smiled, "Yeah." Cameron picked at his food and we didn't speak. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into an empty science lab. "I've been dying to kiss you. I had a dream about you and fell asleep dying to see you. I'm falling apart." He said, it was like he couldnt keep the words in his mouth. I put my finger to his lips to silence him, then leaned forward and touched our noses together. We stayed like that until he pushed me onto the table and layed on top of me. We made out until the lunch bell sounded.
 
Period Four - Advanced Music
We sang songs. B-O-R-I-N-G.
I couldnt think about anything except for Cameron. Im so damn confused.
 
Period Five - Advanced Fashion
I finished the dress I've been working on, and its STUNNING. After i perfected all of those stupid ruffles I sewed on a bow, and made a cool belt. I threw it on and gasped. It fit perfectly. Wearing it for the rest of the day? Why the hell not?
 
Period Six - Math
F'uck Math.
 
So basically I'm pretty damn confused about Cameron. I really like him, I always have. I'm falling for him all over again. Veronika is out of the picture, and Cameron is all over me. I dont know if i should fall for it or if I'll just get hurt again. Love f'ucking sucks. "Sometimes Love Comes Around, And it Knocks You Down, Just Get Back Up When It Knocks You Down, It Knocks You Down."
-A-

LCA RP
 

 

 

Ariana's Official Blog.
What: Coffee break
Where: Cafe
Listening to: Happy - nevershoutnever
Wearing: Sequined Jersey Tank
 
Sundays are beeeyond boring. I headed over to the cafe to grab some coffee. Chanel, Kat, Dani, and some girl named Iris were there. Im starting to realize there are many people at LCA who slip under my radar and go unnoticed. Basically, everyone at the cafe bored me to tears...so i left and continued my day.
 
I hung out in my room for awhile, trying to think of a good song to write. ugh. writers block. NOTHING came to mind. Before i had so much inspiration...about love and breakups and good times, and bad...but now...nothing. And its really pissing me off because music is my way to express myself.
 
Later, i decided to take a walk around campus. I had nothing better to do. As i turned the corner, I saw a boy and a girl making out up against the wall. "Get a room," I murmered under my breath. They seperated heads to see who had boldly interrupted them. "Shitt." I grumbled, when i saw who it was. Cameron and his girlfriend, i think her name was Valerie or Veronika or something. "Hi." Cameron said sharply. I nodded in response, as if i didn't have the time to talk to him. I started to walk away, like this was no big deal, but on the inside i was breaking down. I longed for Cameron to kiss me in that way again.
 
"Ariana wait!" Cameron called after me. I kept walking, although i could hear his footsteps getting closer, and closer. "Ariana please!" He sounded desperate, " I just want to talk. Please." I sighed, turned around and waited for him to catch up. He led me around the next corner of the building and stood me up against the wall, his hands rested on my shoulders, like he needed to hold me there or i would run. "What." I said, my voice cold. "I'm sorry. For everything and i re-" He began. " Stop. Save your breath, because whatever you have to say is not important enough." I said. "No, Ariana please. just let me say what i need to say." Cameron begged. I waited, so he continued. "I shouldn't have cheated on you, or lied to you, or written all of those songs. The truth...the real truth is that i DID love you, but i was commited to two people at once. You ARE the better girl, and i don't deserve you at all. Veronika is a peice of trash, but she is the only girl who does deserve me, because i'm just as low as she is. I wish i never hurt you the way i did, but i was...i AM in love with you. Nothing will ever change that, but i know i can never have you. I've been dying to hold you in my arms and kiss you again, but i screwed up. I'm sorry."
 
I leaned against that wall, taking in what Cameron had just said, and i broke down. I let my tough disguise break, and i let the tears i had been holding in fall down my cheeks in streams. I hiccuped and tried to breathe, but it was overwhelming. Cameron pushed me up against the wall and kissed me, hard. He kissed me like he never did before, not sweet and soft, but like he wanted me bad. I kissed back and let his hands go up my shirt. After what seemed like hours we pulled away, and stared at what we couldn't have...eachother. "I love you." Cameron whispered. I held my breath but said shakily, "I love you too." I really did, but i knew i couldnt trust him after everything. We walked away from eachother awkwardly, and my head was spinning. What the hell just happened?
 
Writers block no more.
-A-